Do you ever think about me?  Do you ever wonder what I’m doing, how I’m doing?  Do you even care?  Do you ever come across something during the day that reminds you of me?  Does passing familiar places make you think about us?  Do you ever think about us?  Do you ever just want to pick up the phone and talk to me?  Do you ever just want to text me?  Does it bother you that we don’t talk anymore?  Does it bother you that I’m not in your life?  Do you even care?

I want to be like you.  I want to not even think about any of those things.  I want to  sleep though an entire night.  I want to stop waking up having mild anxiety/panic attacks.  I want to stop waking up feeling like my heart just can’t beat properly.  I want to go a week without crying.  I want to not care about us anymore because I know that us will never happen again.  I want to stop feeling like I’m not enough for anyone.  I want to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I want to stop being sad and angry and hurt, bitter, torn, broken, defeated, and let down.

Do you know what that feels like?

Lisa xo

First of all, what do you think of my posts is just ‘what you think’ or maybe an assumption (well this doesn’t mean to stop you from not doing so heheh). But the picture is precise. This is like a new wardrobe for me to look up every day ^^

I don’t share EVERYthing to EVERYone as I am secretive (sort of) & I tend to keep my life privately (only to those who really DEAR to me knew it). I’ve never wanted to get an attention from EVERYone in this world as I always stand ‘the closest shall has the speciality’. Meaning to say, if you want to know me better, be close to me or else you’ll only see what i chose to show/post & whatnot.

Blogging –-

I’ve been keeping it to myself that one day I’ll have a blog. Blogging is not just to open up myself to EVERYone, again, here is just to share about what’s going on & the important things that I want to deliver. Though I’m blogging, the private part of my life will always remain as my privacy. Know the limits when you share something because the whole world is watching & DON’T forget to RESPECT too *cheers.

Till then,

Lisa xo