Ramadhan went by way too fast this time. this year it felt, less special, less exciting, probably because i was way too busy with other things to actually stop and take a step back and enjoy this year’s Ramadhan. I actually wasted a lot of time too, slept a lot, did unproductive things, and just like that it passed by without me noticing, sad huh. This year has been a hell of a rollercoaster ride, and its only May! Can’t believe in 1 weeks we gonna celebrate Hari Raya Aidilfitri andddd finally i have some time to blog, i’ve been postponing it for a while! might be a short one tho.

As a kid, growing up I have always thought the concept of rezeki comes in the form of money; either its owning designer handbags, being able to afford to go on vacations, living in a big house and other materialistic things, but as I grow older, my perspective has definitely widen and I no longer see it through a one way path. rezeki comes in so many form that most of the time, i tend to overlook because maybe the things that has been presented to me were not what I wanted, not what I prayed for, not what my hearts craved for.

I guess unintentionally I’ve been brought up to think that money was the ultimate rezeki, to always pray for more money, to always aim for money, to always set money as my ultimate goal.now that I am 23, this concept of rezeki being more than just about filling up your bank account is starting to slowly creeping in.

Although I’ve been well aware of it, but it took me quite some time to grasp that idea, to fully understand it, although I still am struggling to get use to it, but there’s progress,as for now, what I believe rezeki is about being at peace with your mind,rezeki is being able to wake up in the morning, head to the kitchen for a glass of water, rezeki is being able to kiss your parents’ hands, to ask for their forgiveness, to have their blessings, rezeki is being able to buy your favourite food when you want it, being able to get in your car, go to the nearest cafe/restaurant and order immediately, rezeki is being able to smile out of the blue because you just felt content, you just felt at ease rezeki comes in so many form that I always take for granted, I always complain yet never stop to take the time to say my gratitude, I always look at what I don’t have, at what I’m missing, to always peep in the empty hole when there are so many blessing that has been presented to me,

I decided to wrote this down because the other day, I was sighing and felt really sad & frustrated, I always have this tendency to whine over so many things, I am always in denial of my situation, I am always in denial of my own rezeki, I thought I deserved more and maybe I do, if I stopped complaining and just be fucking grateful,I am not only blessed with a loving family but just me, myself as a wholehonestly I had a whole other idea of where this post was going but now I’m just totally lost, but I hope you get my message here, maybe what you’ve been praying for all these while, Allah has already answered, but with a different presentation,you prayed for strength Allah gave you challenges, you prayed for comfort, you prayed for love and Allah gave you time, you prayed for peace and Allah gives you signs, the list could go on and on forever, but deep down your heart is fully aware, until next time my friends.

Lisaxoxo

And here’s to the girls who are a lot to handle, to the girls who has so much going on in their minds but not in their life, to the girls who has people come in & out of their life because they are incapable of being cared by those around them.
This is for the girls who put their heart & soul in everything & everyone, but never getting a second glanced by the guy they like, never getting that approval from their parents, never asked about how their day was by their friends.
To the girls who think far beyond into the future, the girls who stand up on their own when pushed down, to the girls who want more in life, to the girls who fill up the universe with their thoughts & soulful enthusiasm. here’s to the girls who cant make a man stay because these man dont get them, they dont get how close these girls are to the stars, how far these girls are from the city, how much they’ve gone through to be who they are today.
To the girls who has a hard time finding love because they’re so different than what people expect them to be, because they’re just out of this world. to the girls who thought that a man can fill up that little space in your heart. to the girls who has a hard time trying to fit it, a hard time trying to find a crowd where they feel at home. to the girls who dream about a career beyond their small little space at home, but has no guts to say it out loud, afraid they might let down the people around them.
To the girls who wish they were with someone else, instead of the people they are with currently.
to the girls who want adventures, the girls who wish to to see different parts of the world with their own eyes and not just through the internet.
Here’s to the girls that people have a hard time to understand, have a hard time to be controlled by the society, to the girls that just cant sit still.
here’s to the girls who are loud & outspoken, who were never afraid to follow their hearts instead of the minds. here’s to the girls who are just spontaneous & unpredictable,
who are so full of mysteries & surprises. to the girls who tries so hard at love but fails every time. to the girls who are just so perfect at everything, it intimidates the boys.
Here’s to the girls that is just too much to be handled, we’re in this together